"There are a ton of articles out there you can find that will tell you
about the meeting phase, the runner/chaser phase, the harmonizing phase
and all the rest, what I'm going to write to you about today are the
real life phases you'll experience and the emotions that go along with
them when you encounter your twin flame.
My personal philosophy
is that there are enough people out there telling you every theory under
the sun and you will find teachings that resonate with you. I am here
to be real with you. I am here to say, yeah twin flames, fantastic, big
picture ethereal reunion, shifting planet energy and all that, but right
now, your heart feels like it's been ripped through your nose and you
don't know how to breath anymore. Or you're living your entire life in
the shadow of waiting for them to come back to you. You've convinced
yourself you have no strength and power of your own and you are
dwindling.
All the theories in the world are fantastic, but let's
deal with the real world stuff first, so we aren't incapacitated from
life anymore.
I will be entirely honest that I think twin flames
has become somewhat like a religion, each sect of people holding
passionately to their beliefs. I believe the real truth lies somewhere
in between it all. I believe most people are expecting a twin flame to
be something it won't ever be, and I believe many, many people are
trying to give the term twin flame to relationships that are simply
unhealthy and toxic so they have some justification for staying in them.
All these things have their reasons and the fact is that as long as
you're getting something from a situation or relationship, you'll find a
reason to stay in it.
I truly believe to the depths of my soul
that the only way to get through life, happy, whole and experiencing
your magic, is to live authentically in your truth. Whatever you chose
to do, doesn't matter near as much as why, and if you are consciously
aware of it. When we have awareness, when we have enlightenment, we have
power and at the end of the day, that is the thing I wish for all of
you, truth over denial, power over limitations.
Below are my
own opinions based on my own experience, study, research and talking to
hundreds upon hundreds of twin flames. Take what resonates, leave what
doesn't. You are here for a reason, I pray you are blessed
1. Shock and Awe
The very first thing you'll discover is the deep sense of knowing.
You'll feel this person in your soul. This happens with all types of
soul bonds, but there is a weight that comes with the twin flame meeting
that doesn't with the others. This isn't so much, Oh, I know you, as,
Oh, I've been looking for you.
If you've never really felt that
before, you won't have the words to entirely describe the sensation, but
it will be a blend of comfort and excitement that is unmatched to
anything else and it's this feeling that will bring on a state of awe
and euphoria that will last potentially for months.
At first
everything is very wonderful and beautiful. You are experiencing
awakenings left and right, your chakras are lighting up, you may be
having past life flashes, expanded spiritual awareness, possibly even
telepathy and other forms of contact that aren't within the physical
realm. You are not crazy, this happens to all of us.
The sex will
be unlike anything you've ever felt because there will be this deep
connection of souls. It won't be a mere physical act, you will be
bonding and reconnecting on all levels imaginable. In some cases, the
intensity will scare one or both of you right away, or you may both be
able to simply stay in the moment and enjoy every sensation.
It's
a coming home. It's most likely what you've searched for all your life
and you feel blessed beyond words that this actually exists, and you've
got it.
My advice to you in this phase... ENJOY EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF IT.
Do not over analyze it, do not fear it, do not hold back. Dive into
these sweet blissful waters and swim in the deep end because in my
experience, they never come back around again and they are absolutely
not to be missed.
2. Rough Waters
One of the biggests
aspects of the twin flame is that it mirrors back to you all the areas
you have wounds. Every place that you are not acting in your best
interest, and where you need to grow.
That is painful.
There is no two ways about it.
Going through this part of the process, that can start as soon as a few
weeks into the relationship, is like walking through fire. In my
personal experience, we had about two months of the honeymoon period
where all was right with the world, we were in awe of finally having
found one another and we knew there could be no deeper love than what we
were feeling at the time.
Then the pain started. Fights over
stupid things that felt like the world hinged on it. Painful reminders
of abandonment, rejection, insecurities and jealousies. It all started
coming out of the woodwork. He also met someone else who, at first, was
just a fun distraction since he lived so far away, but later became the
perfect place for him to run to.
My advice to you in this stage is stay aware, be intentional, be damn honest with yourself and most of all, be prayerful.
Without my guides leading me through this field of landmines, I'm not
sure how I would have made it. You connect with what you know as god and
you hold on for dear life. You do the work that's being brought to you.
All those fears and hurts, pain, and past issues, as they come up, you
deal with them, you clear them. That is why you're here, that is your
purpose during this phase and no you don't get to say, Yeah this isn't
fun anymore, I think I'm done. The universe will not allow it. You are
in it, you find a way to get through it.
In many ways, this is
the most difficult time and you're best to hold on, seek god, and ride
it through. You can't make choices for your twin, but you do make them
for yourself. In the end of my relationship, my twin chose his fears
over us, in the end I chose god, myself and a higher purpose over him.
Union is not easy. I have to live my life out in my own truth that I am
separated from my twin, but that while I was in that relationship, it
did everything it was supposed to and that's in large part to how I
responded to it and how I navigated it.
You are not a victim to this. You have far more power than you know. Find it. Use it.
3. The Doormat
Hear me out... yes, we all want reunion, but at any cost?
Some twin flame unions can turn abusive and that is never something you should stay in.
This is why I say, be aware. Be aware of what is happening. You and
this other person may be two halves of the same soul, but that does not
give them the right to treat you with anything less than dignity and
respect.
That being said, do your own inventory of how you're being with your twin. Has this become all about you and what you want?
I would remind you to treat your twin with the same dignity and respect
you want to be treated with. You cannot force reunion and furthermore,
the mirror does work both ways. Remember that your twin is in pain as
well as you at this point. Their stuff is coming up as much as yours is.
That's not to say you should bend over backwards to let them be in less
pain, it's simply important to acknowledge that you are both going
through something very difficult. Too often we get entirely self
absorbed and just think that if our twins would give in, everything
would be fine. We put the blame of conflict entirely on them, their
fears, their unwillingness to do it our way when what we should be doing
is looking inward and upward, loving them in the purest sense of the
word, while we love god and ourselves.
This relationship is a triangle in the truest sense of the word and we must remember that.
The other big point - Being a twin flame to someone does not give you
rights to abuse or otherwise victimize a person and we always have the
right, the ability, and the responsibility to say, "No, you cannot treat
me like this."
I feel very strongly that too many of us act in
fear of "losing" this other person and give them far more leeway than we
ever would anyone else. I believe what we are doing in this phase is
nothing more than enabling these people, these ones we say we love so
dearly, to never grow, to never have their dark night of the soul, to
never find their awakening that would lead them back to us in full
reunion.
You are not serving your twin by being a doormat to them. I cannot express this strongly enough.
4. Desperation
On some level you feel your twin slipping away and panic has begun to take hold.
This is the stage that gets ugly because we too often get it into our
heads that all that has to happen for this to work. is to get the other
person to see us in person, and quite frankly, f**k us. (pardon my
language)
We start to believe that our twins are merely under
some kind of spell, we feel them pulling away, we know we are losing
them. Often times they have stopped seeing us, but have kept an online
channel open. It is here where we do the things we will most regret on
the other side. This is where we are in danger of losing our dignity.
There is nothing you can do at this point, but surrender and trust
there is a bigger plan at play. In my experience and countless
consultations, separation does seem to be inevitable.
I'm not
telling you to give up... I'm telling you to surrender to that which you
know is greater than you. There is a huge difference there.
The
truth is there is not a twin flame couple I know of who isn't in, or
hasn't gone through, separation. Separation has purpose all it's own and
we'll get to that next, but for this stage, when you feel that
desperate, you are about to lose the most wonderful thing you've ever
known feeling, I would beg you to have faith, accept what is happening,
and trust there is a bigger plan at work here.
That will probably
be the hardest thing you will ever have to do in your life, but if you
can manage it, it will make all the difference in the world for how
quickly you will regain your life afterwards.
5. Soul Tearing - Unbearable Pain - Also know as Separation
Inevitably every twin flame couple comes to this stage. I have never
heard of one that doesn't. More often than not, there is a tearing
apart, unbearable pain, a reunion that doesn't work and we repeat.
One word of caution here, I know of twins who go back and forth in this
separation phase for decades. I do not see the point to this. This kind
of coming together, breaking apart damages the soul the way the wave
erodes the shore.
One of the things you simply must do when you
are in separation, is give some serious thought to what this
relationship needs to be in order for you to accept it back into your
life.
You have the right to say no to this person if they come
back and their presence will be detrimental to your life. True reunion
is supposed to be a thing of beauty and it takes a lot of damn hard work
to be ready for that. If you've become that person and they haven't,
then send them back out, they have more work to be done.
If they
are not serving your highest good, if they have come back out of some
lower energy need for control or co-dependency, I would beg you to stop
that cycle immediately. I hear all the time, he can't keep away from me,
it's the twin flame connection.
I would dare say it's not the
twin flame connection as much as it's the fact you allow them to get
away with crap no one else will, therefore they are comfortable with
you. They know you always welcome them back no matter what they do. They
love that they never have to change, you accept them for exactly who
they are.
That's not the twin flame. That's basic human dependency and abuse.
I see a frightening trend beginning where groups of people, mostly
women, are all commiserating over these unhealthy painful relationships
they are in, justifying every behavior with, "Well, he's my twin, you
know how it is." And everyone in the group will come back with, "Hugs,
yeah we know. You'll get through it."
We are acting crazy here.
This is not how it is to be. These relationships are supposed to light
up the world, if yours isn't, then take a long hard look at what's
really going on and make a stand for yourself and for what the
relationship truly can become.
This cycle can go on for years and if you hear nothing else from this article, hear this...
Your twin flame journey is here to serve you and serve the planet, if
it is not, then something must change. Do not let it drag you around
like you've fallen from a merry-go-round and your clothing has stuck on
the horse.
You have power and control in this, and every
situation in your life. You do what you must to be strong, to be whole,
to be well. Do not fall into this pattern of together-apart and let it
tear your soul to pieces.
Once you have experienced the first
separation, it is time to start doing your own work. It is time to start
processing everything you've been through and most importantly, it's
time to decide what you need from this relationship and what you will
and will not accept. Because in most cases, this person does come back,
but if you are just glad to have them back and think your connection is
going to work everything out magically, I'd ask you to go back to the
top and read these stages again.
Even if it means they leave again, you need to do what's right by god, for yourself, and for the whole of this relationship.
After phase 5, you hit a fork in the road: one path leads some to 6, the other to 7.
Autenthic twins will find 7 at the end of 5. Others will find 7 at the
end of 6, and some never find 7 at all and that, in my opinion, is an
absolute tragedy...
6. It was never a twin flame (also known as "near twin fever")
At some point we all get sick to death of the whole mess and we wish
we'd never heard the term twin flame. Well, here's where we put on our
big girl/boy panties, suck it up and accept our truth... our twin swept
through our life like a wild fire, we feel beaten, broken, bloody and
bruised, but it's time to assess the damage and find a way to carry on,
without rewriting history.
This is the beauty of separation.
It is a gift in truth because no one can withstand that kind of
intensity for endless amounts of time. We need a time to step back and
assess what's just happened. We need to ask ourselves all the hard
questions, honestly dig through wounds that were opened, what you
learned, deal with your anger and disappointment and become the creature
this relationship came into your life to reveal.
At this point
in the game we feel stupid. We feel like we gave our hearts in the
biggest way imaginable and were rejected. We may feel like we were
played and lied to, but I would offer up that in the case of a true twin
flame experience, your other half went through the wringer ever bit as
much as you did, they just handled it differently, internalized it
differently and were probably quieter about it. Keeping much of their
fears and emotion to themselves, but don't dismiss their pain, because
they felt it too.
Do not do a disservice to yourself, or the holiness of this relationship by rewriting history.
Do not spend the next three months looking for loopholes and ways to wiggle out of all you felt and experienced.
This is a time for honest self reflection and a debriefing of all you went through.
Maybe they weren't your twin, but you better be sure before you start
flying that banner. Because your truth will surface and if it's that
they ARE indeed your twin, then you'll have to go through it all over
again because rather than dealing with it and evolving, you buried it
and hid in denial.
The universe doesn't respond well to the latter.
7. Acceptance, Peace, and even Joy.
You've been through the fires of hell and this is your reward, don't
cheat yourself of that because you didn't want to do the work. If that
person is indeed your twin, there's no point in analyzing it.
This stage is rare, but I know people, myself included, who actually
find this elusive acceptance of it all and with it comes peace, joy and
purpose like you've never felt before.
After you ve gone through
the first few stages, and been through the ringer with this person, you
should just have the intuition of knowing that they are your other half.
The yin when you are yang, and the yang to your yin.
There are
happy endings and there is purpose to the twin flame, even when we go
through the separation. In other words, handing it over to the powers
that be, and trust in yourself that all will turn out as its supposed
too. I've recently surrendered and realized that my twin was gone...
physically. But I know in my soul that if there's one person in this
world that I'd want to spend countless lifetimes with and eternity with,
if I had to choose, it would be him.
Fact is, none of us know
the future. My guides are forever telling me "All things change in a
heartbeat" I can't tell you how many times I experience that. Something
you never saw coming suddenly shows up in your life and your entire
world is different.
This happens good and bad. Our twin flame is
usually this, but my guides tell me all the time, for as much as I loved
my twin, I didn't know that kind of love existed before I felt it...
Yes, the twin flame is that powerful. It is that special. We just need
to stop shoving it into a box and trying to contain it. It's a wild
beast and it will do what it will.
I am a hopeless romantic and
eternal optimist and I do believe in great love and couples defying all
odds to be together. For those whose path lead first to 6, i say live
each day expectantly of a partner that will come into your life and be
that great love and because of what you have been through, you are now
ready for it in ways you never knew you needed to be ready.
Hold on.
Cling to your understanding of God.
And love with everything you are.
Because at the end of the day, you are blessed by this experience. Love to you all, today and always "
~ Samantha Lucas